stay away from negative people

so, in the past months. I have some experiences that some people just wanna talk bad about me. They wanna spread bad rumors about me, that I am like this.. and that... and this.. I just let them talked bad about me. My life without them is very smooth sailing... i didn't think anything, i am not stressed and no one told me about bad stuff in people. Suddenly recently we are OK and then back to normal, they talk other peoples lives on me etc. And now i came to realized... that.... when they are not in my life, my life is OK... nothing to worry and actually so many good things happened in my life.. now that they are back.. it started again.. this is not really healthy for me. I may start to slowly drift from them I think... to have a normal life again.... and not always in chaos.....
Just a thought...
And a reminder to myself.. to STAY AWAY FROM NEGATIVE PEOPLE. because nothing good will happened

Open love letter to my Valentine

An Open Letter to my one and only love Dan Conner

Dear Honey,

HAPPPPY HEARTS DAY! 

I LOVE YOU

MAHAL KITA

ALOHA

Because of our distance, I couldn't think of anything to give you this Valentines day other than to show to the whole world how much you mean to me. 

I remember the letter I wrote you while we were in Remington Hotel, I wrote some reasons why I love you and I even wrote there there's still lots that I haven't write yet coz it will take me forever to write it! lol.... but now when I think of the reasons why I love you... I run out of reasons honey... I guess love just happens... I just felt it.. felt deep within me, I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY. No matter what.  

Everytime I see your message on my phone, my heart beats faster, my face became brighter and my mood happier! and when I see you, I am in my happiest state.. I am sky high! I am sure you know and you felt it.

I love you very much, mahal na mahal kita hon... that if you open my heart, your name is in there and will permanently be there for the rest of my life. 

Thank you so much for loving me and accepting me of who I am, I admit I have so many insecurities with my body and how I look but you always always reminded me that I am beautiful, that I am sexy... those words honey..it means a lot to me, I may respond to you like "arrgghhh..hindi..." but deep inside I am taking your words, it makes me happy and slowly I believe that I am really beautiful :) thank you for always reminding me that.. You are the ONLY one who always appreciate and assured me that my boobies are ok, they are nice because you know thats my greatest insecurity... and because of what you done I now have confidence :) Thank you for bringing that out in me, I love you hon.

And this Valentines day, I can only promise you some things; that I will be forever loving you, respect you, look up on you, be faithful on you, give you my 101% trust, serve you, take care of you and always makes you happy not giving you any headache :)  

I am so excited to spend the rest of my life with you honey. I want you to be my one and only husband til the day I die because my heart only beat for you. And I will do my very best honey to be the best girl for you. 


I LOVE YOU always and Forever honey Dan :)


From your awesome 
girlfriend/fiancee

Diwa Dagami

Happiness is a CHOICE

Happiness is a choice! that's right it is a choice, it is choosing the adventure in every moment, choosing to understand that there is always good in every situation and every person, choosing to forgive someone who hurts you, choosing to laugh instead of cry and most especially choosing the right person who makes you happy.

I have been so blessed because the year someone broke my heart is the same year I found my greatest love. I choose not to grieve when my heart was broken  because in my mind I always knew everything happens for a reason. That God and the universe allowed it to happened to teach me a lesson and simply, there is better to come than that. I moved on, I choose it because I wanted to be happy and guess what? I SUCCEEDED!!!!HOOOORRRRAAAYYY!!! LOL

Met the most awesome man on the planet! and the source of my happiness, He and Ven (my daughter). And the best part is? WE ARE ENGAGED!! yes you heard it right, I am finally engaged! and soon to be married! oh I cant wait to be his wife and serve him, love him, and show him everyday how much I love and care him. How important he is in my life and I am in my happiest state of my life now because of him.

I AM HAPPY NOW because I choose this and because I know that choosing to be happy will make me a better, stronger, wiser, more longsuffering person. I choose to be happy because this make things easier, luck on my side always and if things dont happen the way I wanted to happen, I can accept situations of what they are and make the most out of life. 

and speaking of happiness, I will be living in the best paradise on the planet...... HAWAII!!! with the love of my life, Ven and his sons. I cant wait! cant wait! 

PS. I love you Dan

Do you believe in soul mate?

Just wanna share this thought.

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…

OWE

So many things I need to blog soon. in 2 days time.

some thoughts to ponder

When you truly love someone don't give up on that person go out of your way to win his heart back and only when you feel you have tried your best only then you let go. You cant help who you love.

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Thoughts of a half drunk girl

So, What I have been doing Lately?.....

I have been busy literally.. Actually I felt guilty cox I only remember my blog when I felt bad inside that I needed to pour out my emotions.

I dont know how to begin this entry, too many things in my mind that i cannot organize my thoughts into writing, i was never and will never be a writer though i tried hard enough..oh well what can i expect in myself~~~ even before when i was a litte girl until i grew to be a attractive teenager (LOL)I remember I always been trying things that are not meant for me. I swear to angels in heaven i have a very bad voice but I auditioned in glee club in my school and when the coach didnt get me obviously, I told her I will not go out not unless she will let me in the club! Well what can she dO? She let me in and I was happy. When I was in high school I tried my best to excel in anything academics (which is easy) and non-academic (which is difficult) , I was a cheerleader though I dont have a background in gymnastic! I cant even split my two legs but yeah I did manage to be a cheerleader along with my sister Reva for 2 yrs!
In senior high school, I was an officer in ROTC Reserve Officer Training Corps (ROTC) is a military program for senior high school and college students in the Philippines. It is intended to train students to prepare for national defense, and includes problem solving, military discipline, systematic planning, proper ethics, and leadership skills. YES u heard it right I am 1st Lt despite my Heart valve problems. So whats the point why i am writing all this? Maybe because from then until now i feel like I am still trying my best to things that are not for me :(

SO whats with all the drama??

argh! I dont know, dont know how to start this~~~~ Many told me that I am beautiful, maybe they are telling me a lie,  but if its true that I am beautiful then I can conclude that "beauty comes with a curse" I dont know why I feel this at the moment :( One of the reason why i get so sentimental is its because memories are the only things that dont change when everything else does. There are things in life that you cannot hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it.Sometimes destiny isnt always good, it becomes playful. When you met someone you learned to love, you thought that its destiny who made your path crossed. But what if making your paths cross is just part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasnt really meant to stay... but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you've already fallen.

Oh well I better put in mind that I can never own something that was NEVER mine so I should stop gripping on things I expect to last forever. NOTHING LAST FOREVER, FOREVER IS A LIE. EVERYTHING IS TRANSITORY. So while you have something in your hand, put in mind that its just borrowed so that one day when it is gone it wont take you eternity just to let it go..

When my feelings get so strong with someone, i always stop for a while and give my heart a time to breathe... a time to use my mind to weighed the situation based on the reason not on emotion because the saddest that happen is when one fall inlove while the other wants nothing more than a friendship.

There are times when I wish i am limited to certain emotions so that i'll never have to experienced pain, disappointment and never get my fragile heart broken.
But the same thing means that ill never know how it feels to love and be love in return, the thought of it scares me~~~~ to have a heart thats full but numb or to have a heart that broken but real.

Someday I will be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and FIGHT. When that time comes ill be laughing at my old damn self realizing how stupid I were to stand up for things I knew is not really meant for me. But i guess learning takes time and mistakes makes one journey fun... SO I SHOULD LIVE, LOVE AND TAKE THE PAIN IT BRINGS though its hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen its harder to stop when I know its everything I've always wanted~~~to love and be LOVED.


diws

is this the only word i am allowed to use?

Ok so I deleted more than 100 entries in my blog and never blog since then... but today i feel like i wanted to write something because i cannot bare this feeling anymore.. I wanted to share what I feel at the moment anyways he doesnt know I have a blog anyways. 

You see I have been seeing this guy for a long time now and we had such the greatest connection the whole wide world! He makes me happy in every aspect of my life, when i am down he always always put a smile in my face, I can see his sincerity and good intention on us. And I think he is the most FAITHFUL guy i ever met and will ever meet in my entire life! When we talked we always just laugh and laugh which i find soooo goood. Never a dull moment with him. But yeah we're just friends special friends that is which is i am cool with that as i am so careful with my heart too. I dont wanna rush things and besides its hard in our situation.

Anyways ~~~~~~~ I MISS YOU... YOU ARE SPECIAL...TAKE CARE..KISSES..I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH... these are the words i am allowed to say.. why? because i am a girl and a girl should only wait first to a guy to say the very strong word I love you... pfffttt i wish i am a guy... i hope he knows that when i say "i miss you" means i love you..

a mother and daughter bonding

Just sharing the photoshoot of me and my Vinnerie.

ENJOY.

some things are not meant to be

Just a little update, Me and Allen broke up actually some weeks ago but dont want to put it here until i finally ready to talk about it. Well this is life. There are some things which are not really meant to be no matter how hard we tried to save our relationship... i guess love is not enough in order for a relationship to survived. Sure love is very essential, it is the core heart of a relationship but there's more than that...  He feel like he was dragging me down which is true, Hes' been suffering something which i cannot put it here coz its private, its not that i dont love him much thats why i choose to broke up with him its just that~~~ i cannot explained it but  i am sure  he knows that no matter what he will always stay in my heart. He's been so good to me the sweetest man I ever had. .. anyways this is my life journey and whatever it is at the end of the road, i am excited to find out.

INFIDELITY ....

Trust is an essential element to any relationship.

This lies at the heart of a strong relationship.

But, once that trust has been abused, it will be

very hard to rebuild that into the relationship.

Let's say that you have a relationship for some

time and you really love your partner. Although,

you have been caught having an affair by your

girlfriend. No matter how she caught you, she saw

the messages from your mobile, she heard you

talking with the other or saw you together, you

have to deal the situation if you really want to

save your relationship.

Infidelity causes intense emotional pain, anger,

disbelief, fear, guilt, shame; but an affair

doesn't have to mean the end of your

relationship.

Here are some useful tips that may help you save

your relationship:

- end the affair - first of all you must end your

affair; if you choose to stay with your

girlfriend, you must end all interactions and

communications with the other

- be honest- open communication with your partner

it is very important; if she caught you in the

act and she know now that you have been

unfaithful to her, you have told her already many

lies, so now you must confess; don't deny,

because this will make things worst;

- apologize - even if you like it with the

other, show your girlfriend that you are sorry

for the pain you caused her and promise her that

you finished your affair; convince her that you

really love her and you don't wanna lose her for

a mistake

- talk to her - if she wants to know all the

details, you've better tell her even if she will

be hurt, and let her vent her hurt and anger; she

will tell how she feels more than once but you

should understand her and listen; remember that

it is your fault that she feels like that

- identify the issues - identify often points to

underlying problems in your relationship; examine

your relationship to understand what has

contributed to the affair;some people cheat

because they aren't getting their needs met

inside their relationship; if she ask you why you

did it, don't be brutal; say it the truth but in

a diplomatic way

- be accountable - if you had an affair you must

take responsibility for your actions

- give her some space - you both need a break

from the emotional stress; you'd better discuss

after she's calm down

- rebuilt trust - start with small opportunities

to grow closer together; after infidelity,

communication becomes incredibly strained; but if

you don't communicate you can never heal and

build trust again in your relationship

- determine your shared goal - make sure that you

both want to save your relationship

- set groundrules - decide both some rules for

the future in you relationship so that both feel

safe and secure

Sometimes after passing trow a situation like

this, the relationships becomes stronger than

ever before. But, if it happens that your

girlfriend doesn't want to forgive you for what

you did, and want to end the relationship, you've

better respect her decision.

AN ANSWERED PRAYER and other stuff

God is really great!! in my latest blog entry i posted that i prayed and asked God something which is really special and guess what? He answered my prayer today!!!! Thank you God! I dont know what i did to you that you are so good to me.. u always gave me whatever i asked you. THANK YOU THANK YOU!! im so happy seriously ;=)
I remember my favorite quote from my ever favorite author Paulo Coelho which state that "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it"  this is really true because it seems like whatever i want in life in which i really wanted with all my heart is all coming true..u just have to believe it and God and the whole universe will gave that to you.



LAst March 24, 2011 my angel Vinnerie just graduated from Nursery with flying colors!! yep yep yep u heard it right!She is so smart just like me LOL..and she is very talented i am so thankful God gave me a daughter like her.I can never ask for more. 


Maybe one of the reason why i am happy because i dont have any anger towards anyone. TO those people who hurt me in the past i already forgiven them and guess what? Life worth living when u have a pure and forgiving heart. Just months ago i really hated someone, i even cursed him.. 3 weeks ago we started communicating, he said sorry and i forgive him and thats the start of our beautiful FRIENDSHIP. He listens to me and gave advices, he is not a bad person i used to think.. he is actually very nice person and a very good friend. I'm happy with whats going on with his life now.


so i guess this is it for the moment. 
ciao!

I SAY A PRAYER today

This photo is taken today at the prayer room in San Pedro Cathedral, Davao City

Life is really like a wheel..sometimes you are on the top and sometimes down. Things these past days is not that pleasant compare to the last days.. I dont want to elaborate things because there are things which i want to keep it to myself but there's only one thing i can say.. "LOTS OF CONFUSION" 

And today i ask the guidance and peace of my mind to my creator..to help me deal with what is happening to me right now. Things are really complicated.I prayed in the prayer room for hours!!imagine..hours..but i did not even realized that i spent so much time there! i was talking to God..and i guess i was carried away by our conversation.. of all the things that i've been dying to tell HIM, to ask HIM that when i came out the prayer room it was almost dark. 

Although im the type of girl who always asked God for guidance but this time its different..because i did not only asked for guidance but i asked Him something really special..I've been asking him the same thing for the past 3 weeks now..Oh God please hear my prayer! Pleaseeeee... 

ok so i dont know what to write anymore.. i just really hope God will answer my prayer..but if not then i am sure there is a reason for everything and another lesson learned! Please Lord i just want peace of mind to every person involved and i hope whatever the decision maybe it will be for the good of everyone. I love you God! and thank you for everything!

LOVE IS LIKE A TRAFFIC LIGHT

i found a video in facebook about love pain and letting go and the message struck me because i can relate to it. The message is written in Filipino and  i translate it in english so everybody understands. When u read this please listen to the background music i set for my blog because thats the exact video that i am talking about. So here is the translation.

Traffic Lights (Written by Sarene Cas)

Love is like a traffic light, there are three colors which becomes a guide for us to know when to stop, to let go, and to take action.

STOP…

Loving someone so much doesn’t always mean they’re the right one for us.Loving someone doesnt always lead you to a happy ending… because true love never ends…

There are times when you would feel the pain brought by your love.It’s painful to think that there are persons who don’t know how to treasure the ones who love them.

They say…

It’s better to accept the fact that you are not appreciated than to insist yourself to someone who never sees your worth. ’till you keep on loving that person, the more you’d get hurt.

Because…

You are afraid to accept the reality…that the person you love is blind to see how much you love him/her…

Loving that person doesn’t really mean that he’s/she’s the one for you…You are afraid to lose the one you love so much…But, is he/she too afraid that he’d/she’d lose you?

LETTING GO...

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. There are things in the world that are not meant for us. The things that we yearn so much to have… could be the very things that we could never have…

You need to learn to ‘let go’ so that we can move on and get over the pains of the past. Loving someone…is setting them free… letting them go…Yes… for someone like you who loves…You might say.. ‘Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away..And going away means forgetting…’To let go is not to deny but to accept… The hardest thing to do is letting go…not because you want to…but because you have to…

There are people who will come in our lives to lift us up from the agonies of the past…Let us not close our heart because we got our hearts broken before..Just remember there is a person who is ready to mend our broken heart and enter our life

TAKE ACTION...

While someone breaks your heart, someone else is waiting to fix it…Proceed with caution. ‘Careful forethought to avoid danger or harm…We were afraid to get hurt…We were afraid to face what could happen…We were afraid to love again…That’s why… the word ‘courage’ became famous…‘Coz that’s what we need to take action…If the traffic light has a yellow light for ‘caution’…It’s the same in loving…if we know that we’d just get hurt and not meant to take the lead…Then..Let’s not wear ourselves out…

Let’s not force ourselves to fit in, in an elevator that doesn’t have space left..Let’s not force ourselves in…There’s a ladder for us to use, we just don’t want to notice it…

Stop…

Let Go…

Take Action…

Traffic Light…

I'M a Lucky One!

just had one of my luckiest day today! guess what? so many good things happened..ok ok im going to enumerate them..

1. I have the love of my life which loves me and i love him back so much as well, he never fails to send me sms everyday and email..he's so sweet i so love Allen! i feel like im floating when we're talking just the look of his eyes melts my heart away..baby you just dont know how much i love you and you dont know i have a blog too! its better this way so i can write anything i want without hesitations.

2. I went to the Students Account Office this morning to let them assess my account, i need to pay my tuition fee so i can take the final examination, when the operator handed me the assessment of my account i was shocked! I   said to him "are you sure you are correct?.. He said "yes ma'am thats correct" I looked at my assessment with jaw opened..somebody was paid my tuition pay! and i dont have to pay for anything no more!! i was like omg!! Anyways im not really wondering who paid my account i already have someone in my mind, Vincent--the father of my daughter. he's been paying for it eversince without telling me, i already talked to him about this but he feels like it's his obligation to do it. I told him its not necessary but he insist..well who am i to say no? I called him and say thank you. He's always like that anyways, never fails to surprise me even though its been a long time we're not together. He just felt GUILTY i guess for all the things that he did to me before thats why he tried his best to help me as much as he can.

3. I was really thinking i have an "incomplete grade" in my 4 subjects i took last term because i was not able to   take the 1st exam but then today i found out i have a grade which is above average! so now that i have a grade in these 4 subjects i dont have to look for the professors and ask them to let me take special examination. oh God you are sooo great Lord! thank you!!

4. My evaluation on my teaching demonstration last week was excellent; above average, infact im one of the highest according to the principal yay!!! 

5.I was not able to study last night coz i was out with friends and guessss what?? our examination is all ESSAY and i soooo love it! wooaahhhh i am so glad its not enumeration and identification!

6. when i came home my sweet angel Vinnerie is there kissing me and hugging me and telling me she loves me..wow!! this is life!!! 

I LOVE MY LIFE now..

love of my life

i love you Jeremy Allen!!!!

GUESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

if you guess what this picture means to me then you are soooo smart.. 

9 WORDS WOMEN USE

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means  she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7..) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say
you're welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying F** K YOU!

9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself.. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.Then you RUN!

POST VALENTINE UPDATE

so, valentines day was over and maybe some of you are wondering what i got on valentines day, do i have a date?.. did someone gave me a bouquet of flowers? mmmmm....

Feb.13 i had dinner date with some of my closest friends in high school Queng and Sitti. Its been a long time i havent seen them and i am very happy to see them again.

WOw, we've changed a lot, before when we were in high school, we talked on boys, make ups, celebrities and other nonsense stuff but now its really different, we talked about life, work, business, work, relationship, marriage and parenthood, sure we matured a lot. 

Queng had her own Review center for nurses and is doing great, Sitti landed in a nice job with good position she was able to buy her own car recently and what about me?.. mmm well as what everybody knows im trying my best and i guess i am really a lucky girl, was living on my own, had the noblest job with enough salary to pay the bills, buy food clothing etc. My plans on studying my masters in Australia is very clear now, i choose new castle university and right after my graduation this october ill be taking the scholarship examination of new castle and im crossing my fingers. 

February 14 i dont have a date because we were in my grandparents place to celebrate the 1st year death anniversary of my grandmother although there is a certain guy back in my city who always asking me to go out but i refused him for the reason that i am not still ready to go on dates. I promised myself i will not go to dates nor entertain someone until april this year.. and you asked me why april? i choose not to say it ;=)

thats it for now. i hope i can update more often.